- •Table of Contents
- •1. An awful dream
- •2. A journey home
- •3. Face to face with life
- •4. Drama in the graveyard
- •5. Imperishable
- •6. Stripped of female dignity
- •7. Making evrything new
- •8. Human before divine
- •9. Written on the ground
- •10. Sensing god’s love
- •11. White as virigin snow
- •12. Reaching out in faith
- •13. Soul driven body
- •14. Beyond many miles
- •15. Looking ahead
- •16. Unforgetable events
- •17. “It was my turn”
- •18. Broken strength
- •19. Helped by an angel
- •20. When the car spoke
- •21. Never give up
- •22. God’s children
- •23. The dream
- •24. Face to face with death
- •25. “There is a god”
- •26. At the baptismal pool
- •27. “I’m going and you decide for yourself”
- •28. Sunday breakfast special
- •29. “I heard him sing”
- •30. Dancing on the edge
- •31. Under god’s control
- •32. No regrets
- •33. God’s birthday gift
- •34. Garden picnic
- •35. Mystery
- •36. No longer fatherless
- •37. Baptism
- •Baptism
- •38. Late fruits
- •39. Family of god
- •40. Growing together
- •42. Motherly love
- •43. Woman to women
- •44. Created different
- •45. The best christmas present
- •46. At the edge of the new
- •47. Return home
- •48. Bus journey
- •49. In the hospital
- •50. On the brink of loosing everything
- •51. Spiritual refesher
- •52. The last supper
- •53. Returning without a coat
- •54. Mother’s day
- •55. The best of your mum
- •56. In the garden
- •57. I will wait for you
- •58. God provided
- •59. Christians die singing
- •60. Last words
- •61. Ready?
- •Be ready
- •62. All things to all people
- •63. Until we meet again
- •Happiness will forever reign
Dance
on the Edge
Marica
Mirilov
A paradox of human life is that we all aim for
bliss of happiness, but it’s only in sorrow and pain that we reach
deeper spheres of spirituality. Brought to the edge of life with
terminal illness the writer’s mother got to know God and developed
a relationship with Him that even death couldn’t threaten. People
write books to tell their story of healing. They portray Jesus in
action of miracle doing.
Dance
on the Edge is a true story about a
miracle of spiritual healing. It ends with the protagonist’s death
that is the reality for many people who fight terminal illnesses.
Mum, as the writer refers to her mother Marija Klemm, discovered and
claimed God’s promise of eternal life given to all humanity, so
she was never dying but enjoyed every day given by God. She danced
on the edge. It’s a book that shows in a striking way the
understanding of a simple woman, what it means to be a Christian
through her beliefs and actions. Mum ‘fell asleep’ content in
God’s love and ready to continue the relationship with God
throughout eternity.
Dance
on the Edge is a story of a family
brought together in times of tragedy during illness. The family
described is an ordinary family made unique when God manifested His
love and involvement in all aspects of their lives. When God was
permitted to enter their lives, miracles became a way of living.
DANCE ON THE EDGE
Today on the edge,
Dance!
Don’t wait for another chance.
Embrace life;
Sweet scent of flowers,
Mellow songs of birds,
Bite of a delicious apple,
Softness of the rain,
Golden sunset,
Before tiered eyes are closed,
No feelings, no need,
Before everything turns into void.
Dance,
not solo performance.
Kiss whom you love,
Turn around, give everyone a smile.
The dance belongs to one who danced when
the idea to create you became real,
your life became blessed and a blessing,
your sight moved beyond the edge of a mortal man.
Dance with the Prince of life.
He will take you over the edge
to eternal side.
Table of Contents
Table of Contents 3
1. AN AWFUL DREAM 5
2. A JOURNEY HOME 6
3. FACE TO FACE WITH LIFE 7
4. DRAMA IN THE GRAVEYARD 8
5. IMPERISHABLE 9
6. STRIPPED OF FEMALE DIGNITY 10
7. MAKING EVRYTHING NEW 12
8. HUMAN BEFORE DIVINE 12
9. WRITTEN ON THE GROUND 13
10. SENSING GOD’S LOVE 15
11. WHITE AS VIRIGIN SNOW 16
12. REACHING OUT IN FAITH 17
13. SOUL DRIVEN BODY 18
14. BEYOND MANY MILES 19
15. LOOKING AHEAD 21
16. UNFORGETABLE EVENTS 22
17. “IT WAS MY TURN” 23
18. BROKEN STRENGTH 25
19. HELPED BY AN ANGEL 26
20. WHEN THE CAR SPOKE 27
21. NEVER GIVE UP 28
22. GOD’S CHILDREN 30
23. THE DREAM 31
24. FACE TO FACE WITH DEATH 32
25. “THERE IS A GOD” 33
26. AT THE BAPTISMAL POOL 34
27. “I’M GOING AND YOU DECIDE FOR YOURSELF” 36
28. SUNDAY BREAKFAST SPECIAL 37
29. “I HEARD HIM SING” 38
30. DANCING ON THE EDGE 39
31. UNDER GOD’S CONTROL 41
32. NO REGRETS 42
33. GOD’S BIRTHDAY GIFT 43
34. GARDEN PICNIC 45
35. MYSTERY 46
36. NO LONGER FATHERLESS 47
37. BAPTISM 48
BAPTISM 48
38. LATE FRUITS 49
39. FAMILY OF GOD 50
40. GROWING TOGETHER 52
Refrain: It is well, with my soul, 52
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come, 52
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought! 53
But, Lord, ’tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait, 53
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight, 53
41. SPA 54
42. MOTHERLY LOVE 55
43. WOMAN TO WOMEN 56
44. CREATED DIFFERENT 57
45. THE BEST CHRISTMAS PRESENT 59
46. AT THE EDGE OF THE NEW 60
47. RETURN HOME 61
48. BUS JOURNEY 63
49. IN THE HOSPITAL 64
50. ON THE BRINK OF LOOSING EVERYTHING 65
51. SPIRITUAL REFESHER 66
52. THE LAST SUPPER 68
53. RETURNING WITHOUT A COAT 69
54. MOTHER’S DAY 70
55. THE BEST OF YOUR MUM 72
56. IN THE GARDEN 73
57. I WILL WAIT FOR YOU 74
58. GOD PROVIDED 75
59. CHRISTIANS DIE SINGING 77
60. LAST WORDS 78
61. READY? 79
BE READY 80
“BE READY!” 80
You got ready 81
62. ALL THINGS TO ALL PEOPLE 81
63. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN 82
HAPPINESS WILL FOREVER REIGN 84
1. An awful dream
What an awful dream! I was screaming in my dream and made strange noises that woke my husband up. “Calm down. It’s only a dream,” my husband tried to reassure me.
I couldn’t stop sobbing. I could hardly talk. It was a dream I would never forget; it was 7th October 1999, my 33rd birthday, early morning just about the time I was born. In my dream I had received the news that my mother had died. At the time I was living in Northern Ireland. I was supposed to be at her funeral but couldn’t make it on time. She was already buried when I reached our small village, Stari Slatinik, in Eastern Croatia. Approaching the gate of the graveyard and dreading the reality, I fought a power in the form of wind that I couldn’t defeat. And this fight woke me up.
As I was weeping I told my husband I had to call my parents straight away. He tried to calm me down and advised me to wait until later, not to disturb my parents so early. Every minute of waiting was like an hour, I was sure this dream had a special meaning.
“Mum, tell me what’s happening!” I started our conversation. “Happy birthday our daughter. Who told you?” mum tried to control the situation. “Just tell me, and tell me everything.” I insisted.
Just a month and a half prior to this, my husband, 5 and 8 year-old daughters and I had gone on holiday with my parents on the Adriatic coast. I had noticed that mum had lost some weight and couldn’t eat much. Mum was never a good eater and complained that the heat made her rather sick when she wanted to eat. So, we didn’t pay much attention to that.
However, from then on she started losing weight rapidly. The family doctor immediately assessed the situation and at the time I called her she was already undergoing different medical examinations. On 22nd October 1999 she was on the operating table, diagnosed with malignant stomach cancer.
My older sister Ana, 37 years of age, came home from Serbia, where she had lived for 15 years with her family. She stayed for two weeks to help our parents as mum was recovering from the operation. We agreed that I would go home to help after mum’s second chemotherapy, when the side effects would be traumatic.