- •Reapers, Inc. - Brigit's Cross Prologue
- •1: The Day the Sky Fell
- •2: Things Broken
- •3: Stalked
- •4: Someone to Watch Over
- •5: The Bleecker Street Café
- •6: The Reaper’s Field Guide
- •7: Training Day
- •8: Explanations
- •9: Organizing the Organization
- •10: The Queen That Never Was
- •11: Bobby Hooper
- •12: Moving On
- •13: A Wish to Forget
- •14: For the Love of Dillon
- •15: Seamus Flannery
- •16: Dealings
- •17: Assigned with Seamus
- •18: Reaping the Chupacabras
- •19: Decisions
- •20: Mama Dee
- •21: Belinda Yaris
- •22: Seamus on Fire
- •23: The Reaper’s Apprentice
- •24: Mr. Blackwick’s Discoveries
- •25: Edmund j. Polly
- •26: The Confabulating Irishman
- •27: Brigit’s Side
- •28: Fascination
- •29: Mama Dee, Part II
- •30: Maggie
- •31: The Ire of Mr. Flannery
- •32: The Heaviness of it All
- •33: The Break
- •34: Back in the Swing
- •35: Hearing Matilda Sing
- •36: The State of Reapers, Inc.
13: A Wish to Forget
Another two weeks passed quickly, bringing Christmas at hand. Brigit had gone on about her business at the firm, reaping as many as she could between the times the sun rose and the sun set. John expressed his surprise that she had taken on such a heavy work load so quickly. Brigit had only shrugged and picked up another pile of portfolios before walking out.
Things at home were progressing as well. Brigit had watched as Maggie came in from her date that night, a slight flush present in her cheeks that Brigit immediately recognized. It could have been the wine they had enjoyed over dinner, but Brigit heard the voice in her head telling her firmly that she knew it was something else. Lorena had asked to see Maggie to the door, but Maggie had only allowed the woman to kiss her on the sidewalk outside. Brigit had felt the tiniest measure of relief in that action. Perhaps Maggie was unsure after all…
Maggie had noticed the dead flowers in the bouquet the next morning. She had merely shrugged and plucked the two stems out to throw them away. Brigit’s effort had gone unrecognized and now lay in the garbage. She decided that she would have to work on another way of letting Maggie know her feelings.
Two nights later, Brigit had come home to find Maggie cooking dinner. The dining room table had been set for two and candles were lit. Soft jazz played through the speakers of the stereo in the office. Maggie was dressed casually, but not in her usual lounge pants and oversized t-shirt. She was entertaining and Brigit knew exactly who was coming to dinner.
Brigit had stayed long enough to watch them eat and converse. Lorena did most of the talking describing her exaggerated adventures in the Swiss Alps and the huge corporations she had taken on in behalf of the underdogs of society. Brigit couldn’t help but roll her eyes when Lorena made a joke that was meant to impress Maggie. When Maggie stood to clear the table, Brigit’s anger was ignited by Lorena’s sudden move to catch Maggie by the hand.
“Dance with me,” she said as a slow ballad had begun to play on the station that Maggie had chosen.
“I don’t dance well,” Maggie answered, a quick blush rising to her cheeks.
“It’s simple. I’ll lead,” Lorena said as she stood. She pulled Maggie to the center of the living room and slipped her arms seductively about Maggie’s waist.
Brigit felt her fingernails biting into the cloth on the arm of the reading chair as she watched the scene unfolding. She couldn’t do this. She couldn’t watch where the scene would end. Quickly, she jumped up and stormed to the door. With her anger at its height, she yanked the door open and slammed it behind her.
Maggie and Lorena both jumped at the sound of the slamming door. Maggie had felt the rush of wind that had swept past them before the noise had come. The energy within that wind was familiar. There had been a faint scent of French lavender on it. She had smelled it before, but she had thought it was just because Brigit had so recently been present in their apartment; but now… after so many weeks of Brigit’s absence… She began to shake with the fear it had awakened deep inside her.
“What the hell was that?” Lorena asked. Even though there was a tremble in her voice, she was trying to appear brave.
“Maybe it was a neighbor’s door,” Maggie suggested even though she had heard it clearly as her own front door. She was trying to suppress the shiver that had taken control of her, but it refused to go away. Even the weight of Lorena’s hand still on her waist gave her no reassurance.
“Does that happen often? Your neighbors slamming their doors?” Lorena asked.
“No,” Maggie said. Lorena turned and looked at the shaking woman. A look of concern came into her eyes as she realized Maggie had turned deathly pale.
“What’s wrong?” Lorena asked, raising her hands and cupping Maggie’s face.
“I don’t know,” Maggie offered.
“Are you frightened?” Lorena asked in a purr, gently stroking Maggie’s cheek with her thumb. Maggie tried to shake her head, but it barely moved under Lorena’s firm hold. “I could stay tonight, if you want,” Lorena offered. Maggie tried to shake her head again, but Lorena’s hold was not easing up.
“That’s not really necessary,” Maggie whispered. Lorena lowered her head and brushed her lips across Maggie’s softly. Maggie felt her knees begin to gel, but she was sure it was more from the incident that had just happened and the knowing that it was supernatural than it was from Lorena’s kiss.
“But I want to stay,” Lorena whispered before pressing her lips against Maggie’s again. When they finally parted, Maggie could only nod her head even though every instinct within her was yelling for her to do otherwise. As Lorena led her down the hall by the hand, Maggie couldn’t help but glance over her shoulder and wonder…
Brigit found John at the Bleecker Street Café. He was sitting at the counter conversing with Giuseppe quietly and seemed somewhat surprised when Brigit slid onto the stool beside him. The angry expression on her face told him the answer to the question before he had even opened his mouth to ask it. Maggie had found someone new. Brigit was feeling betrayed. Instead of broaching that particular topic for immediate conversation, John feigned ignorance and expressed his joy that she had shown up.
“I was just telling Giuseppe about a potential new recruit. I found his file today. I think he would do well with the ‘Potential Problems’ department,” John explained as Giuseppe slid a cup of coffee in front of Brigit. She accepted it with a silent nod. The fact that she had never heard Giuseppe utter a word made her briefly wonder how John could carry on anything more than a one-sided conversation. That thought, however, was quickly burned by the bonfire of her anger.
“That’s great,” she mumbled in response to John’s revelation.
“I think we’ll go together to interview him,” John decided before picking up his tea cup and sipping noisily. He was being obnoxious, Brigit thought.
“I can’t wait,” she said.
Her mind was going elsewhere. She was wondering if she should have stayed and watched what she assumed would happen. She wondered if Maggie would allow the other woman to touch her like Brigit used to touch her. The thought of it caused Brigit’s fury to burn hotter. John had fallen silent beside her, staring at the opposite wall waiting for her speak again. Knowing he was baiting her with his silence, she conceded by asking: “How long does it take?”
“How long does what take, darling?”
John turned and leveled his ice blue eyes on her. He could see the emotions running wildly through her mind. Her face was as smooth as stone, but the energy flowing through her body was screaming it all. He knew exactly what she was asking, but, he wanted her to voice it out loud.
“To forget – how long does it take to forget what Life felt like?” she asked. She turned and met his icy gaze with a level one of her own. John felt himself stiffen at the sight of the emotions churning in the depths of her soul. He forced a gentle smile to his face and relaxed.
“Oh – that,” he sighed. “Well, love, it depends on you. If you truly want to forget it, you will with time. However, you run the risk of forgetting everything,” he warned gently. He hoped she would catch the subtlety he was trying to invoke empathetically.
He had been there once himself, asking the same question of his own now-retired-mentor. He could still hear the ice filled answer that had pierced him to the core and helped him make the decision to try to remember how Life had felt. He would remember the good times and the bad simply because he didn’t want to be as cold blooded as Araxius Herodotus. John had walked away from that discussion and consciously decided to remember everything. He could not fathom forgetting the feel of his lover’s touch or the warmth of breath against his skin in the darkness. He never wanted to forget the long warm kiss in the middle of a cold September rainstorm that had etched itself into his mind as the absolute happiest moment of his life.
He had the instinct now that Brigit, despite her anger, would not want to forget such sensations from her own life either. Not really. He had not met Maggie yet, but, John could feel the love Brigit still carried for her. It was Brigit’s cloak, her protection and courage. He had the sense that it had been that way during their mortal existence together. If she were to discard all of that just to sidestep the pain she would feel upon bearing witness to Maggie’s continuation of life, Brigit Malone would be left vulnerable. The soul she would become would be an empty shell of the soul she was now. How could he make her understand that pain was part of the new existence she had chosen to honor her promise to Maggie? How could he teach her to be tolerant of Maggie’s progression through life?
Brigit remained silent as John continued to look at her. She knew he was reading her as easily as he read one of their portfolios. She didn’t care. At least someone could see her.
“Don’t make the decision lightly, love,” he suggested. “Take your time on this one, trust me.” Brigit nodded in acknowledgement of his advice before asking:
“How do you know?”
Her voice was soft and John realized that she was deep within her confusion at everything as a whole.
“Because I’ve been where you are,” he answered.
“You weren’t always a Reaper?” Brigit asked. She slowly picked up her coffee and blew across the surface.
“I was mortal once. I didn’t choose this particular occupation when I was alive, if that’s what you mean. No one grows up saying they want to be The Grim Reaper,” John laughed.
“I guess that would be kind of on the morbid side. Can you imagine how many mothers would put their child through a life time of therapy if the kid’s first words were ‘Grim Reaper’?” Brigit smiled at her own joke. She was beginning to relax. John was glad.
“Or worse, exorcism… the church’s business would be at an all time historical high,” John continued with the joke.
“So why did you take the job?” Brigit asked.
“For love.”
“Oh,”
“You sound disappointed,” John chuckled as he turned and reached for his tea again.
“Oh, no, I’m not. I just thought maybe you had a slight morbid streak. That’s all – what was her name?” Brigit asked, reaching for her own cup.
“His name was Dillon.”