- •It was a distressing time; and poor Jerusha Abbott, being the oldest
- •It sprang into motion and approached, head on for an instant, the
- •In addition during the four years you are there, an allowance of
- •I suppose you're thinking now what a frivolous, shallow little beast
- •I have the honour of being,
- •I have the honour to report fresh explorations in the field of
- •In my education as such? I hope you appreciate the delicate shade of
- •It was great fun, though I have seen better candy. When it was finally
- •Vacation will be over in two days and I shall be glad to see the girls
- •I said we ought to go back for Julia and Sallie, but he said he didn't
- •I don't suppose you understand in the least what I am trying to say. A
- •I was pretty panting at the end, but it was great fun, with the whole
- •I sat up half of last night reading Jane Eyre. Are you old enough,
- •It's my favourite play at night before I go to sleep. I plan it out to
- •In the world; she knows everything. Think how many summers I've spent
- •If he doesn't hurry, the cleaning may all have to be done over again.
- •It commenced just that moment with tremendously big drops and all the
- •It. Some of them were awfully perturbed at first at the prospect of
- •I meant to have written a lot about the budding trees and the new
- •10Th June
- •19Th August
- •In the afternoon we take a walk on the cliffs, or swim, if the tide is
- •In Paradise. And I thought that my own clothes this year were
- •I wouldn't ask it except for the girl; I don't care much what happens
- •4Th April
- •If it doesn't. If you just want a thing hard enough and keep on trying,
- •6Th October
- •International donations are gratefully accepted, but we cannot make
- •Including how to make donations to the Project Gutenberg Literary
10Th June
Dear Daddy,
This is the hardest letter I ever wrote, but I have decided what I must
do, and there isn't going to be any turning back. It is very sweet and
generous and dear of you to wish to send me to Europe this summer--for
the moment I was intoxicated by the idea; but sober second thoughts
said no. It would be rather illogical of me to refuse to take your
money for college, and then use it instead just for amusement! You
mustn't get me used to too many luxuries. One doesn't miss what one
has never had; but it's awfully hard going without things after one has
commenced thinking they are his--hers (English language needs another
pronoun) by natural right. Living with Sallie and Julia is an awful
strain on my stoical philosophy. They have both had things from the
time they were babies; they accept happiness as a matter of course.
The World, they think, owes them everything they want. Maybe the World
does--in any case, it seems to acknowledge the debt and pay up. But as
for me, it owes me nothing, and distinctly told me so in the beginning.
I have no right to borrow on credit, for there will come a time when
the World will repudiate my claim.
I seem to be floundering in a sea of metaphor--but I hope you grasp my
meaning? Anyway, I have a very strong feeling that the only honest
thing for me to do is to teach this summer and begin to support myself.
MAGNOLIA,
Four days later
I'd got just that much written, when--what do you think happened? The
maid arrived with Master Jervie's card. He is going abroad too this
summer; not with Julia and her family, but entirely by himself I told
him that you had invited me to go with a lady who is chaperoning a
party of girls. He knows about you, Daddy. That is, he knows that my
father and mother are dead, and that a kind gentleman is sending me to
college; I simply didn't have the courage to tell him about the John
Grier Home and all the rest. He thinks that you are my guardian and a
perfectly legitimate old family friend. I have never told him that I
didn't know you--that would seem too queer!
Anyway, he insisted on my going to Europe. He said that it was a
necessary part of my education and that I mustn't think of refusing.
Also, that he would be in Paris at the same time, and that we would run
away from the chaperon occasionally and have dinner together at nice,
funny, foreign restaurants.
Well, Daddy, it did appeal to me! I almost weakened; if he hadn't been
so dictatorial, maybe I should have entirely weakened. I can be
enticed step by step, but I WON'T be forced. He said I was a silly,
foolish, irrational, quixotic, idiotic, stubborn child (those are a few
of his abusive adjectives; the rest escape me), and that I didn't know
what was good for me; I ought to let older people judge. We almost
quarrelled--I am not sure but that we entirely did!
In any case, I packed my trunk fast and came up here. I thought I'd
better see my bridges in flames behind me before I finished writing to
you. They are entirely reduced to ashes now. Here I am at Cliff Top
(the name of Mrs. Paterson's cottage) with my trunk unpacked and
Florence (the little one) already struggling with first declension
nouns. And it bids fair to be a struggle! She is a most uncommonly
spoiled child; I shall have to teach her first how to study--she has
never in her life concentrated on anything more difficult than
ice-cream soda water.
We use a quiet corner of the cliffs for a schoolroom--Mrs. Paterson
wishes me to keep them out of doors--and I will say that I find it
difficult to concentrate with the blue sea before me and ships
a-sailing by! And when I think I might be on one, sailing off to
foreign lands--but I WON'T let myself think of anything but Latin
Grammar.
The prepositions a or ab, absque, coram, cum, de e or ex, prae, pro,
sine, tenus, in, subter, sub and super govern the ablative.
So you see, Daddy, I am already plunged into work with my eyes
persistently set against temptation. Don't be cross with me, please,
and don't think that I do not appreciate your kindness, for I
do--always--always. The only way I can ever repay you is by turning
out a Very Useful Citizen (Are women citizens? I don't suppose they
are.) Anyway, a Very Useful Person. And when you look at me you can
say, 'I gave that Very Useful Person to the world.'
That sounds well, doesn't it, Daddy? But I don't wish to mislead you.
The feeling often comes over me that I am not at all remarkable; it is
fun to plan a career, but in all probability I shan't turn out a bit
different from any other ordinary person. I may end by marrying an
undertaker and being an inspiration to him in his work.
Yours ever,
Judy